"Man, something inside me said to slow down, but I didn't and then I got pulled over."
... or ...
"I just knew going out tonight was a bad idea and then this huge fight broke out."
Or what about the times when you've felt the nudges or received the signs to make a change and you continuously ignored them? This happened to me very recently. I've been receiving signs and messages all relating to change - now is the time to make a change; watch where/how you spend your energy; letting go of something opens space for something else; and so on.
While I was receiving all of these signs and messages, I was also slacking a bit with my radio show on BlogTalk, which I co-host with the fabulous Shannon, The Psychic Cowgirl. I could tell my energy wasn't as invested as it had been in the past, as I was forgetting things here and there, and I would find myself being really amped and on top of things one month and then being thankful for Shannon handling things the next.
It wasn't until Shannon let me know about a new opportunity for us to look into that the connection between releasing and the radio show came together. And even then, I STILL said to myself, "No, there's no way that could mean the radio show. All these messages about change and releasing something have GOT to be about something else. I'll just ride this out ..."
And then it happened. An emotional breakdown unlike any other emotional breakdown, which actually had absolutely nothing to do with the radio show. But, it was all part of the master plan.
Shannon sent me a message Sunday morning asking if I was OK, because she had a dream about me. I was fine and responded letting her know. Within hours everything took a nosedive. I messaged her back when I finally had strength and awareness, telling her I wasn't OK and letting her know what I was feeling and going through. We messaged back and forth a bit and on Monday, she checked on me again. I let her know I was still feeling a bit yucky and she jumped right in saying that she would find a guest host so I could take time for self-care. (love her!)
I listened in to the show that night and joined in the chat room. I noticed how lively and energetic I felt being in the chat room, and so did Shannon. And then, it happened again (that intuition giving nudges) ...
We both had to admit to ourselves and each other what we had been feeling and getting signs of. Because it turns out, it wasn't just me getting these signs, it was Shannon too!! When we started this venture a little over a year ago, we promised each other that if it either one of us felt that it wasn't fun anymore that we would let the other one know, and there would be no hard feelings. Shannon and I have been friends for years now, but this radio show brought us a lot closer together and even though I had been feeling a bit heavy about the radio show, I didn't really feel that it was "not fun anymore" and didn't want to upset Shannon or stress her out with worrying about doing the show alone or finding a new co-host or anything really. Funny, Shannon also didn't want to upset me in anyway, so we both went back on our promise, even though it was in an effort to not upset the other one.
We talked and once we were honest with ourselves and each other, we know that this is the right thing to do at this time. As much as I love giggling with Shannon on Monday nights, it is time for us to end this venture together.
The best part about all of this is that we, as friends, talked and fully honored what the other had to say. After talking, it was almost silly that we both were afraid to speak up about what we had been feeling. Nothing has changed, except for the fact that we will no longer be doing the radio show together (that and she won't be giving me a weekly taunt about parallel lives). I have a huge respect and adoration for Shannon and if she continues to do the show, I will fully support her and be a regular guest (and if I have my own show somewhere down the line, Shannon will fully support me and be a regular guest). :)
So, here's the lesson in all of this - honor, trust, and listen to your intuition and don't be afraid to talk about your feelings! Amazing things happen when you follow through with your gut instincts and handle situations like respectful adults. Things don't have to be messy, icky, and upsetting. They can be simple, easy, and light. It's all how you approach and handle the situation.
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