Life Contracts

Have you ever been in 'that' moment when you stop and think (or actually SAY), "I DID NOT sign up for this!"?

I was thinking that exact thing for a moment today, when I realized, that thought couldn't be more untrue! We, in fact, DID sign up for this - this lifetime and all that in entails, good and bad. I seem to struggle with keeping the momentum of positivity when life itself gets overwhelming.

I find it very difficult to be invested 100% in something when the other people involved are only invested a portion of that. It's difficult when a large amount of responsibility lies solely on one person. Which leads me to the dynamic of men/women relationships.

'Back in the day,' women stayed home and did all of the household duties while catering to their working husbands. Why is it that this theme seems to continue, in this day and age, while the women ALSO hold jobs of their own? Career, family, cleaning, bills, grocery shopping, and the list goes on. I find that quite a load for one person. But, as sexist as this sounds, I don't feel that the majority of men would be able to handle the responsibility of the above mentioned 'load'.

With a lot on my mind and a few recent experiences of carrying a large amount of the responsibility, I'm finding myself in a place I don't like being in. My 'happy place' awaits me. Hopefully it won't take me much longer to get back there.