For the love of Goddess

I attended a class tonight at my favorite meta-shop. It was all about the three aspects of the Goddess. The best part was the guided meditation, which brought us to meet each aspect of the goddess. We started out next to a well, that we threw all of our problems down. We then went on a path, leading to an iron door. Once I went through the door, I was met by Kristin, who assured me this was good and I would enjoy it. She walked with me through the corridor, arm in arm, into the open area where I met the Maiden. The Maiden was lovely and beautiful, wearing a long white flowing gown and full of life and vitality. I spoke briefly with her and asked her to oversee a project I am working on. I departed with her, and Kristin, and moved into another corridor. At this point, I was literally spinning, so much so, that I thought I might fall out of the chair I was sitting in!

Walking through this corridor, I was met with ghosts and issues from my lifetimes. However, none of them touched me. I was surrounded with some sort of 'field' protecting me and my energy, while being told in my ear, from a soft voice, that I've been doing a great job dealing with the issues and ghosts and there was no need for interaction with them now. I then walked into a large room with scarlet walls, with a fountain in the center, flowing deep red water. This time I met with the Mother. Again, she was beautiful, wearing a long red flowing gown and the Mother was had such nurturing about her. We spoke briefly, then she touched my third eye, and put her hand on my heart, while holding a chalice for me to drink from with her other hand. She then instructed me to go through a doorway, which led to a very narrow hall.

This hall had amethyst points on the walls and I was able to touch them and take in their beauty. This hallway was also extremely narrow, yet I was fully comfortable and not experiencing any anxiety or feeling closed in. The next room I came upon was dark and gorgeous. There was a black pool, and when I looked into the water, I saw what had to be a vision from a past life. I was in that pool, figuratively, being drowned for my 'ways'. My vision was interrupted by the arrival of the Crone. She entered wearing a long, dark cloak, with the hood over her head. She lifter her hands to pull the hood back, revealing her long gray hair, in two braids and her beautiful face, full of wisdom and knowledge.

Around the pool were three sets of stairs, leading up to a cauldron. The Crone walked me up a set of stairs, where I was staring down into the cauldron. There was dark, inky like liquid bubbling in it and she told me if I was ready for a rebirth, to take off my clothes and get in. She also warned that there would be consequences should I do so, that a rebirth requires many actions. I wanted this full experience and I feel I am ready to move into the next phase of my life, so I went in. It was beautiful in there! I was able to stand in the liquid, surrounded by dark, having my own private moment. I felt the liquid surge up around me, surrounding me with love. I felt an overwhelming sense of love from inside there. While basking in this, I heard, "Look around." So, I walked over to the 'wall' of the cauldron to see what was there. I saw hieroglyphics on the wall. It went down a ways, with scene after scene of information. Far too much for me to fully take in or remember.

The Crone reached in to pull me out, and I was back at the top of the stairs, but fully dry. I came down and met the Crone. She also had a chalice for me to drink from. She held the chalice while I drank and then touched my third eye, my chest, and my abdomen. She then put something in my hand. It was thin and silver, somewhat like a coin, but none like I have ever seen. I was told I shall have this item in my presence one day.

I have never done a guided meditation before and I'm very happy with the outcome. I feel I'm getting better at going into a meditative state, and I am so happy that I was able to see and experience this meditation. I also can't believe how much I was spinning in the beginning!! I felt different when I left, on a bit of a high, and loving everything about life. *sigh* Goddess Bless!

A Visit from a Friend

Usually our drive home from Michigan consists of me, driving with the radio off, leaving me to my thoughts, while the hubs dozes off. This evening however, I decided to play the "radio game" while driving. The radio game consists of me hitting the 'scan' button and letting the radio automatically flip through the stations, and when I hear a song I like, I stop the scanning. Most times, the radio just scans and scans, and allows for background 'noise' while I drive.

During the drive, my thoughts drifted off to wanting more time to practice readings and connections. I thought, I need to find someone to work with, allowing me to practice on a somewhat regular basis. Hey, maybe hubs would be a willing participant. Maybe I can ask him who he'd like me to try to connect with. While these thoughts are happening, I hear a very familiar and much LOVED song on the radio, so I quickly stop the scanner. The song was Far Behind by Candlebox. I know, old song, but the song has much significance for me. That was one of "mine and Kristin's" songs. And, for the first time since she's passed, the words to this song actually spoke to me. It was Kristin, communicating with me.

Why didn't I think of this already? Here I was, thinking about how I need someone to work with, and then Kristin appears!! For whatever reason, my mind was thinking someone in the physical, but my request was answered immediately, and the answer was someone in spirit. Of course!! How silly of me to NOT think that in the first place! I asked her, you will work with me? You will help me with my connections? Why did I not think of this? You are someone I completely trust to turn to for messages.

I even asked about my grandmother, because I thought, for sure, she would be my 'helper', but for whatever reason it is Kristin. And? I am so OK and comfortable with that! Actually, I LOVE it!

After that song was over, I went back to scan. If you're not familiar with the 'scan' feature on the car radio, this button flips through the stations, stopping for 15-20 seconds on every channel it picks up. In those 15-20 seconds that each channel idled, I was given so many lines of answers to all of my questions. Gosh, she makes me smile! Then, I asked her, Come on Kris, give me something more. Give me another song. I need to KNOW this is for real.

I got the most amazing answer. A song I've heard before, but never paid much attention to, I'm Yours by Jason Mraz. While, to most, this is a love song, but to me, it was my answer.

(the lines in bold and italics are the ones that spoke to me)
Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, and I'm tryin to get back before the cool done run out
I'll be givin it my bestest and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more, it cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
It's your God forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved
So, I won't hesitate no more, no more, it cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate our time is short this is our fate, I'm yours
Do you want to come closer, dear? And I will nibble your ear.
I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass and so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm a sayin' is there ain't no better reason to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do our name is our virtue
I won't hesitate no more, no more it cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate our time is short it cannot wait, I'm yours.
No please don't hesitate no more, no more it cannot wait, the sky is yours!

Now, I must admit, this isn't the song I was hoping for. I was truly hoping for the other one of "our songs," but this one confirmed AND answered questions for me. I told her how much I love her and how I wish I could just squeeze her. But, I am so incredibly happy about her visit and our new-found connection. And, I cannot wait for our future endeavors. I can't say it enough, I truly love this girl!